Monday In Melbourne(ish) at an event where i meet a group of new peeps a funky crew maybe i am in that back alleyway next to my nanna's house that i have visited many times in my dreams. the crew are kinda funky kinda feral in a gypsy free spirit saj way. we are at a swimming carnival where i leap into the water and swim super fast win the race jump out back with the crew. they are wondering where they are going to go to next so i suggest they come and live with me at starland. after suggesting it i realise i have just filled up my house w people i barely know at which point it occurs to me that we are all aligned creatively so its all good. one in particular is very HOT. drawcard... Tuesday At hoopcamp hooping it with safire trying to find the right hoops realising that i have given away or sold some of my favourite hoops running around trying to find the right ones as i wanna hoop with her! head upstairs where everyone is staying we are in the desert in a forest on a journey lotsa people. a guy is in the bedroom where my hoops are so i sneak in grab the hoops and run via a rendezvous in the bed with him! he seems confused by my hit and run manner. no time to lose. wake up to email from hoop camp heather... this happened last year. the signs are all there!
Wednesday In San Francisco with Deanne and Christabel. Christabel is driving Deanne and I around enroute to Hoop Camp. I'm aware of how odd the Australian accent sounds in America. We stop off at a gathering in a park. Pass a diner on the way where people are eating dodgy food. Exit quickly. Walk over to the circle of people in the park where Christabel is filming the event as a favour to a friend and a creative chill space of her own. A tiger crawls up next to me and playfully bites my arm. I shake it off but think it's cute all the same. Christabel mentions that I should be cautious because such "playfulness" usually means it wants to eat me and it will chase me if I don't be careful. I run off to a building and close the door knowing the tiger is after me. I hold the door tight but the tiger is intent on getting in and pushes hard against the door. I wake up.
1. Take full responsiblity for your own happiness 2. Tame the mind 3. Chase happy + positive thoughts until you walk with them hand in hand 4. Treat others with the love kindness and compassion that you would your own child 5. Enjoy every day in the moment in the now
Anticipation is building, a crescendo and a storm. The waves in StarLand are big as the rain continues to blow in and out with random cameos from the sun. It's cleansing and helps inform my dreams of the wildness that hangs out in the subconscious. A skip through time as the slide kicks in with a progressed Sun Mercury on IC (past life) and progressed Moon in preparation to cruise over the Ascendant (new life). Fascinating to watch who blows in and out and with what kinda karma in attendance. Ekhart reminds that the awakening is not in 2012 or any other arbitrary or allocated time but in the realisation that the NOW is the only time that counts. Full presence required. More hoopies keep appearing! I love those moments in class when we complete the standing forward bend in warmup by coming upright and a hoopie appears out of nowhere. Hooping magick blows me away every time. I wonder what will fill my dreams tonight. A nightflight to venus is due! Pre-dream programming required.
It was a funny old Autumn day last Saturday in Sydney - the skies were grey but the mood was bright and my wardrobe was all about pink. I packed a bag in StarLand the day before in preparation for the Colour Parade with the usual time keeper tapping on one shoulder and the fashion police prodding the other. The intuitive wand said step beyond what's passed before which meant a few favourites and some random bits of yet to be tested bling. Mental note - don't leave home without safety pins ever again! They are essential items that keep such randomness together.
So as I threw on the ensemble of cosmic choice, I battled with the idea of taking Tina out for yet another ride. She had been doing the rounds lately and to be honest, as much as I love Party Tina, we had been spending WAY too much time together already and just the smell of her was making me... twitch. But the Scorpion insisted, despite my protests in favour of the turban (wrong shade of pink apparently) so I succumbed to the pressure with the knowing that Tina did indeed take me to another dimension and dabbed on a little extra essential oil.
The Scorpion and I set out on our pre-parade route - a hoop video driveby to Chatswood, parking mission in the city, stop-in @ the supermarket for safety pins and oops forgot Day 28 equipment - PriceLine to the rescue. Both of us NEEDED those safety pins and we were counting on the Colour Kids to be fashionably late like they are to install the pins into THE LOOK but as we made our way to Town Hall half an hour or more past the designated hour I saw a flash of the Colour moving and then they were gone. We powered faster up George Street with hoops and camera equipment ready to go... we were so on the mission to make it - the outfits would just have to behave! A guy with long hair and big camera ran past us shouting out the lowdown - The Parade had begun and was snaking through the QVB spraying colour and good vibes throughout. My dress needed pinning! but time had slid... into the spiral. Rok ON.
As we broke on into the parade mid QVB I was hit with an awe that doesn't come by all that often in life. The Colour Kids were in full swing and in finer form than ever before. The ability to outdo the self within a collective has been mastered over and over again by the Colour babes. The way they continue to re-invent with character-fuelled outfits, makeup, props, positive vibes and joyful presence all in the name of Colour and the Celebration of Life is such a special experience to witness and be part of. It's pure love and creativity at its best. It's like 1969 distilled and put into a bottle... with a little something special at the bottom. Put that into your Party Tina Survival Kit.
"Evolve Already" sprung out amidst it all on a placard. Casi(O) in his white wedding dress and matching balloon sashaying through the streets. Anto DONE like never before - that makeup! always a masterpiece, video camera firmly in hand. Alex Moonage with her wizard like presence waving the signature giant flower, a bouquet this time. Matt Glowman skating up a storm with a jetpack of balloons attached to his back. The Hare Krishna chinging along and chanting away - a new favourite. The whistles, the whoots, the skipping through Martin place, COLOUR driveby of Myer's makeup department (um turn around Colour Kids you are going the WRONG way!) and a lovely interlude @ the Museum of Contemporary Art for a viewing of Yayoi Kusama. That's when THAT BOY that I keep seeing popped up in all his very own Pinkness... Regrette... there are none.
It was all too much... I had to leave Yayoi for another day as the hoops were calling and my flow was ON so the spin went well into a vortex all of its own while the Colour crew lapped up the art. More awesome pix by Talen
The Scorpion and I were called back to StarLand on ethereal business - we left the Colour Kids to continue their jaunt in the Botanic Gardens feeling blessed to have been part of such beauty. The inspiration and joy that flowed that day I will remember foreva - thank you to the Colour Parade for creating such a living work of art!
The Carnival of Electric Illusions club night, hosted by the Colour Kids, is on this coming Saturday 25th April @ The Abercrombie on Broadway - check it out!
The 3 beat never fully grabbed me until I recently saw Sharna-Rose rock out Safire's 5 beat extravaganza... now it's become an obsession. Reality hit via the mutha of all mathematical epiphanies ... 5 comes after 3... there aint no way around it! Or is there? Actually now that I am applying myself to the 3 beat with the focus and intensity it deserves I'm almost enjoying it! Aaaaaaaaagh! It's SO frustrating. BUT Guru Sharna is in my mind the whole while: "let go of the ego and enjoy" yeahyeah sharnaji! that lady IS a machine there is no doubt about it. I'm putting the word out to all those in the know - I NEED HELP!!! and I NEEEED the 5 beat like yo momma needs her baby. Check it out for yourself - pure genius.
So it led me down a twins training session that included Chopper Hovers both horizontally above the head and vertically in front of the body (with added Twirly Whirly Behind) + Behind the Back Spins, Thread the Needle, Double Isolations and On the Body Split Reversals. I started downsizing hoops then upsizing again until I reached what felt like the perfect size for such twin play - 85cm (33"). Ideally I want my hoops to be small enough to rock out in the hands without feeling like my wrists are going to snap off and big enough to throw back onto the body with full mobility including split reversal range.
In Chopper Hover I am noticing it is better to keep a lighter grip on the hoops on the way down and up. Also important to keep the body centred evenly inside the hoop, grab from far left with right hand behind the back and keep the arm close to the body (elbow pointed up) as it snakes back up, Elevator style, keeping a smooth momentum and flow. You can wing this one if it's not behaving by staying with the spin - what seems most important is the flow of the lift.
Another amazing and inspiring video of the day came from Beth Lavinder - truly breathtaking in grace, flow and sharpness in those reversals.
The training path is calling me big time. I need it on a daily level. I dream it when I'm asleep. I can feel the portals opening as I jump into my very own unknown to discover what others experience and beyond. I want to experience life as a waking dream - surreal blissful bizarre and unique to my mind's eye. And I want to get that 3 beat in preparation for the five beat before the end of April OR ELSE!
Yoga this morning, meditation and juice. Oddly this is the second morning in a row of waking up without an alarm clock at 7.29am. On the dot. It's gradual but I am noticing the reduction in sleep that I need right now. Rest, less running around, less heavy food, less food, less internal baggage and no toxins makes such a difference! More water always.
So its Day 24 and I feel amazing. Let it be known that this is not the usual feeling around such a number. 4 day countdown and my whole system would usually be gearing up for pre-moon freakout!
Day 1/27 - 110409 Dreams of hooping - Working on the chopper and its landing. Astral traveling to Bend, Oregon for the North West Hoop Gathering? In the flow. Hooping hooping hooping. Dreams of cleaning houses and spaces for babies and the building of new projects. Fighting negativity vigilantly and staying away from chat boxes... they have become too limiting and frustrating in terms of genuine communication. Prefer voices on the telephone these daze, even an email or a letter seems to have more depth than the k haha brb lol omg... disintegrated language of the day. Skype on its way jetsetters! Loving quality time in StarLand both solitary and with the Scorpion and the SupaStar GemStar aka GlitterGirl last week. A shift in the vision map. Also a review of yesterday's Colour Parade to come - such fun and high vibe energy that lit up the grey streets of Sydney's city. WOW!
They say in the world of writing that if you don't make the practice your first priority it will be your last. Well with a sideways glance and a few pupil rolls (6 to the right then 6 to the left) I gotta admit it's been one of my main frustrations and blockages in life. Why do I find it so hard to make time to write! More hours in the day would be nice, I will say, but beyond that there has got to be a more telling reason as to why I avoid one of my major passions. I see it in other areas too such as yoga, personal hoop practice, meditation, sleep and detoxing. Always too busy doing a gazillion other things - important, meaningful, fun-filled hoopy things, but still leaving me with a feeling of not having covered some fairly essential bases that contribute to the experience of maxing out on LIFE. I am guessing it's about organisation and prioritisation. Now is a significant time.
I think I've said it before, when the 8 week term is on it is ON. Living in StarLand is blissful to be sure. It has however added quite an amount of travel into my daily schedule so this is a factor to weigh up in the upcoming transition in June. Term 1 is now complete giving me four weeks to chillout, recapitulate, rest, WRITE, plan, organise, enjoy the paradise that is my home on more of a continuous rather than sporadic level and create a daily schedule that includes all these creative life essentials.
What to do first though? Self preservation. It's more of an undoing process than anything, something that transforms into being. I can feel myself withdrawing more and more into this self-created retreat and sharing it with those who care to join me. It's been quite incredible spending time and life with the hoopies who participated in last weekend's teacher training, with the Scorpion whose presence is always adorable, with GemStar who is soon leaving Australia and with myself in those brief moments that I get to be by myself. I'm not forcing the solitude - it will arrive when it's right. Having said that, I can feel that being the theme of next week. Is it possible? I'm excited! Often I feel like I need to be alone to write, to fully relax, to go deeper into my yogic practice and to sort out my life.
It's Week 2 of a 3 month detox - no social lubricants, sugar, or wheat. Sugar and wheat have been in small doses but my major vices have thus far been eliminated. Such a different feeling! My waking and dreaming minds are so much clearer. Thoughts, feelings and energy flow so much more smoothly. I have been craving this space for a LONG time. It's only now that I have found the desire strong enough for it to overwhelm unconscious patterns of outdated and collective urges. The social factor is a big one and for now I am safely AWAY in my tree house at StarLand but I know that I can't stay away forever nor do I wish to - it's the next big challenge and one that is coming up this weekend. I don't want to be rigid with myself and start creating unachievable rules BUT I do know that I don't want toxins in my body right now and for a substantial period so I need to focus on that intention and healthy craving rather than falling yet again into unconscious and peer driven habits. My new "guideline" is that if I really want it I will have it but I would like to be more fully conscious of whether I really do want it before succumbing just because everyone else is in on the "fun" train - Libra alert!
Practical to do list - Agh... the bookwork - another if it's not the first it's the last. It HAS to be done and WILL be done and brought to a point that can be delegated in an organised and systemised condition rather than dumping my mess onto someone else. I will not hand it over until it has reached this point. My instant instinct right now is to think about something more fun! Hello Mardi Gras!
More videos to come... Got a pile of files just waiting for the digital nip and tuck. A stunt double I tried in the form of DD Hoop Love but wouldn't you know it! Two versions of a humanoid like me = EVEN more bling life to do than eva! More hoops more gigs more videos more makeup more hair!! We did have fun though... more more more! Stay tuned for the Party Tina 7 minute Hoop Dance Party Workout. Not to mention the freakn amazing video Alex Chomicz shot of us down at Customs House a few weeks back. Tina come home! Party Daniel misses you... X
Speaking of videos - instructional DVD on its way. The wheels are in motion and the drawing board is ready. What colour pens to use in the mapping I wonder...
The concept of time is transforming along with a lot of perceptions. Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth on audio has been cell shifting to say the least. Depth awareness replaces the linear paradigm which on a practical level is useful but ultimately hits walls beyond the material realm. The dimension of time in its limited human construct can be overwhelming and stressful in a chasing of tails kinda way. Hours of the day, days of the week, weeks of the year, years of our life... age, time, where we need to go and what we have to do before time runs out or the memories fade... don't be late! etc etc What about just enjoying every single millimoment to the utmost? Exploring the moments and using "time" as a framework in which to do it rather than the heavy density A-Z anchor that we are bound to.
Emotional freedom found in identifying triggers to the "pain body" breakthrough experiences and release into transformative thinking response-ability replaces reaction allowing space between thoughts and a sense of Nowness that knows there is no other time other than the present. Which right now means dream time - a personal favourite.
But before I do, I wanna wrap this entry up by coming back to where I began in honour of the circle and then zap it back out into the spiral. There are no regrets and no expectations. The moment is all that counts. I am ready to write. I am ready for yoga. I am ready to detox. I am ready to rest my mind. The exploration will go well beyond the surface. The results will be as they are. All I know is that there are very few days when I don't soak up every single cellular moment and if there are ways to expand that then I'm up for it. Practical organisation of physical, mental and emotional spaces are required. The moments are becoming more intense and less stressful in a way that only makes room for more moments because of intent, clarity, space and an awareness that this is IT - the tunnel of passion leads to a light brighter than the sun rays. And like the butterfly that hovered above on Sunday night I choose to fly freely into and amongst it knowing it supports my every move.
Intergalactic hoopstress on a mission to share hoop love and joy with as many humans as possible so that we can all ascend in a spiral vortex of hoopiness as often as we care to enjoy!
