WINTER is here in Sydney. It's COLD! There was a day when I thought it was going to snow... in Sydney. THAT will be the day when we know the Earth does shake. In the meantime I am driving around bubble wrapping the leaks in the spaceship, trying to find a gap to send it into the intergalactic mechanic, finishing up Term 2 classes, moving out of StarLand, trying not to freak out about impending wisdom tooth extraction (anchoring into the now and warrior-esque fearlessness) and preparing for the desert...
GYPSYDOM - I'm looking for a studio space to work / live in... I mostly work so that's the focus... one just appeared! As in RIGHT NOW. In Darlo. Perfect. It's available tomoro. I want it. The view on the horizon broadens as I notice and acknowledge a stirring in the soul which adjusts the pre-perceived view of the hologram. Never let your head tell you how it IS until you've checked in with your cellular and soul-powered intelligence - it will keep you spinning in circles rather than spiraling through the hologram... Cut to yoga class yesterday - rolling the head from side to side then spiraling it back to centre > now there's an analogy.
YOGA - every day for 14 days ... on day 3 today ... then a week's break for surgery ... then every day for the following 14 days ... then the desert. Yoga just gets better every time. This morning I woke up at 6, had a 15 minute sleep in, slipped into my gear, ran through the rain in the dark along the clifftops and bounced into class. There is something quite incredible about pre-sunrise yoga. As in, really! I have to recommend it. In the past before my being was programmed to WANT it, which you need to get there... all I could think about when waking up at that time was need more sleep. Probably had a food / alcohol hangover too - i.e heavy density. Now that my entire being knows that blissful experience, it craves it - change script to can't wait to experience that feeling. Ditch the hangover, lighten the food, bed earlier to make sure it happens. Life changing. Life affirming. Calming. Bliss.
MEDITATION - Day 6: shooting stars behind my eyes + purple balls of light; Day 7 - purple + yellow balls of light
DIET - mostly raw (probably about 90%). Juices + smoothies + salads. Steamed vegetables. As much brocoli as possible - juiced, steamed, souped bring it on! Any superfoods that come my way are more than welcome... as is seaweed. I'm learning not to be so extreme in most areas of life and food is one of them, so is alcohol. The reality is when you clean up your diet and eat healthily, you can't partake in any more than the body can tolerate right in that moment because the whole bio-energetic system just becomes so sensitive. Having said that, there's nothing quite like a really beautiful glass of good quality rouge on a cold winter's night. I find it weird how alcohol and other drugs are seen as the big baddies in the world of gastronomic / mental badness, which in essence they are... but i'm going to slide another prime villain up the list here - SUGAR! My biggest downfall used to be chocolate - but since discovering Loving Earth chocolate which has Agave Syrup in it instead of sugar and a few other awesome ingredients like raw cacao, goji's, activated almonds and total yumness ... my attitude to the world of chocolate has changed. There really are so many different levels of quality with chocolate and the other delicacies we choose to treat ourselves with in life - some of it in small gourmet portions is really good for you! At an occasional 3 glass limit (that's a wild night these days... more like 1-2)... it feels really under control. I drink maybe once a fortnight, altho with all that is on right now I don't have the time, inclination or energy to really go there unless it seems festively appropriate...
STARLAND - What a magickal place that IS. I went there with the intention to retreat from the city, work creatively and freely, transform my cellular intelligence and simply be in a space to BE. So many beautiful people shared StarLandia and, as Summer passed, the opportunity to explore solitude appeared which I now crave more than ever. It's important to spend time alone, particularly if you are in a relationship or used to being around so many people. When you do, dark caves appear dotted with staligtites of consciousness from which to peer through. They show you life on the inside - reflections of what exists in the outer world... a space that is usually congested with activity and people. I went to StarLand to write, with the initial focus being my book. I left with a script for an instructional DVD... which for the most part was not written on the southerly shores but in North Sydney - a gust of inspiration perhaps? I think in a lot of ways I went to StarLand to let go - I feel like I have accomplished that. What is simply IS and all I can do is shape-shift around this and make my influence felt where appropriate and of compliment to all else.
'"DROPPING YOUR STORY LINE" is, first, a way to notice the suffering that has come with attachment to your story about what has happened and what is going to happen. Then, through what Buddhists call, "skilful means", it is possible to learn how to drop your story line from the past and future, to let go of the constricting identity of yourself as "the sufferer", and to come into the freedom of the present moment. Through dropping the story line you may discover a surprising freedom. As one Buddhist teacher puts it, "We take things very personally. The more tightly we hold self, the more problem. No self, well... no problem! Though Buddhist communities have their problems, because they have contemplative methods for observing and releasing the suffering that comes with certain stories, they have much to teach Christian communities about how to metabolise both personal and communal conflict." Gordon Peerman, 'Blessed Relief'
NUMBER 5 aka The Precise Execution and Successful Completion of Intricate Plans aka THE FIFTH HOOP = SPIRIT... A hoop that came from a medicinal meditation - a creative space in which to loosen up and explore colour, craft, shape, pattern, repetition, creativity, contemplation, newness, calmness, complexity and divine beauty as a result. It has inspired much more than the art of making hoops and the ability to create something of significant size and detail - I am seeing costumes for the desert...
THE DESERT - a breath before proceeding. ALWAYS a drawcard! What is it about deserts? The blank canvas cosmo-sphere... the emptiness and yet fullness... a place where spirits live and dream... for us here in Australia - the centre of our circle. It's my favourite place on this planet - the Australian desert. It's red, it's intense, magickal, powerful and truly breathtaking - it feels like my home.
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